Today is going to prove for an interesting week, my kids have had a cold since last Monaday and it's now turned into a horrible sounding cough. Izabella is going to have to miss school and Anthony I hope will eat something today so he's not soo cranky.
If you haven't noticed my life revolves around my kids they are so important to me, I'm having separation issues about leaving them this weekend for one of my dearest friends wedding. She is such a great friend and I can't wait to stand beside her, I want to be fully present as her friend which is why I am leaving our kids with my Mom and Sister. I'm really lucky to have people that will take really good care of my kids who I can trust completely who I know will make the same decisions as me when they are with them.
But I hate to leave my kids, I believe in the practice of attachment parenting, I believe children have the NEED to be with there Mom's for the first few years of their life. I know that they are going to be safe and happy and well taken care of. I can not imagine not seeing their beautiful faces for one day of their lives. I know I was made to take care of my kids, I want to stay home with them I want to be with them.
I need to stop worrying because it's getting me no where with pimples, I need to find the balance when it comes to leaving them but after this weekend it will probably be a long time before it happens again probably my next good friends wedding.
Monday, September 20, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
I'd Have So Many People To Be Thankful For!
I'm on a journey to become a better person, wife, mother, sister, daughter, friend. In the last few months I have really come to terms with who I am and who I want to be, I always thought I would have had this figured out before I was married and had children. My life has not followed a plan and I pretty sure it wasn't supposed to instead I've been living it.
I'm so grateful and thankful for the people that influenced me in positive ways, who showed me love and guidance when they didn't have to but was exactly what I needed at that time. I've come to decision to thank those people because without them I wouldn't be me and I wouldn't be here.
Recently I have been digging through the deeps of relationships to strengthen the one I have with my husband. I want more then anything for my kids to grow up with their parents together, happily married. I didn't think when my parents divorced it would have had an everlasting impact on my views of marriage and relationships but unfortunately it did, I feel like I'm fighting against this will to self destruct and to just enjoy our ups and downs. When I get really really angry with him I sometimes go to a place of it's over but it's not over and I don't want it to be ever. I want to always work things out I want to give my kids that gift that I didn't have.
Carlos and I have started dating each other again, we had a really short courtship. We have been friends for the last 10 or 11 years but to really date each other ended fast as we got pregnant a month into our relationship. It's been hard to try and get to know each other when you have a child/children. I do know that no other man will ever love me and my kids the way that he does, I've been really blessed to have gotten pregnant by him when I hadn't even met his Mom or anyone else in his family. We were really lucky to have families who supported our pregnancy and relationship, my Dad pushed for a shot gun marriage but he was thinking of me and my unborn child.
Carlos and I went bowling last night for our friend Gianna's birthday, I realized when we were there that we had never been bowling together. I loved watching him bowl, I love how funny/silly and confident he is, how charming he is to everyone who worked there, in these moments I fall in love with him all over again. He is such a special,special, wonderful, man.
To everyone I have relationships with Thank you for helping me get to this wonderful time in my life, I'm so thankful to have you here :)
I'm so grateful and thankful for the people that influenced me in positive ways, who showed me love and guidance when they didn't have to but was exactly what I needed at that time. I've come to decision to thank those people because without them I wouldn't be me and I wouldn't be here.
Recently I have been digging through the deeps of relationships to strengthen the one I have with my husband. I want more then anything for my kids to grow up with their parents together, happily married. I didn't think when my parents divorced it would have had an everlasting impact on my views of marriage and relationships but unfortunately it did, I feel like I'm fighting against this will to self destruct and to just enjoy our ups and downs. When I get really really angry with him I sometimes go to a place of it's over but it's not over and I don't want it to be ever. I want to always work things out I want to give my kids that gift that I didn't have.
Carlos and I have started dating each other again, we had a really short courtship. We have been friends for the last 10 or 11 years but to really date each other ended fast as we got pregnant a month into our relationship. It's been hard to try and get to know each other when you have a child/children. I do know that no other man will ever love me and my kids the way that he does, I've been really blessed to have gotten pregnant by him when I hadn't even met his Mom or anyone else in his family. We were really lucky to have families who supported our pregnancy and relationship, my Dad pushed for a shot gun marriage but he was thinking of me and my unborn child.
Carlos and I went bowling last night for our friend Gianna's birthday, I realized when we were there that we had never been bowling together. I loved watching him bowl, I love how funny/silly and confident he is, how charming he is to everyone who worked there, in these moments I fall in love with him all over again. He is such a special,special, wonderful, man.
To everyone I have relationships with Thank you for helping me get to this wonderful time in my life, I'm so thankful to have you here :)
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
After a Long Weekend...
Welcome to fall, I don't mind fall and I love the weather but that means it will be winter soon and that I don't like I actually despise winter. I am already anxious thinking about winter and how I will exercise my kids. I truly believe in them eating right and getting lots of exercise, everyday I think how am I going to get them tired sometimes I wish I had a track and could make them run laps everyday, kidding... am I?
Last Wednesday the kids and I took a trip with both kids to visit my sister in Massachusetts so my kids could meet my sister's new little girl Samantha. Izabella fell in love with her instantly, she constantly wanted to hold her and burp her, she would look adoringly at her while commenting on how cute her little mouth and eyes were. What a sweet little girl I have sometimes... Our ride up was an adventure, Anthony was exhausted and passed out once we got in the car and on the road (a 2 1/2 hour trip) Izabella stayed up with me the entire time, we talked a lot until we were on the road for about forty five minutes she informed me that she had to gooo POOOP! I thought great I can't pull over on the side of the road and do this myself, Anthony is sleeping and I don't want to disturb him now and have him awake for the rest of the ride. So what did I do? I got off the next exit which had a motel and a parking lot pretty far from the road, I backed my outback into the spot and took Izabella to the trunk and held a plastic bag for her to poop in. I would have never thought my life would come to something like this but it did and we were successful Anthony slept through it and we were on the road as if nothing had ever happened.
Thursday morning I checked my phone and Carlos had left me a message that our nephew Kaedin was born!!! We left at nap time where both kids slept and made it home and over to see Kaedin who was born at 2:15AM 6lbs13oz and adorable!! We have been so lucky to have a neice and a nephew born exactly 4 weeks apart. Two new cousins for my little guys, I personally just love babies so it's been wonderful spending time with them and their Mom's. They both had really easy labor and deliveries making for a wonderful birth experience!
On Sunday was my good friend Maia's wedding shower, I am so happy to be a part of her life she is such a wonderful person and is just surrounded by a wonderful family! Izabella came with me and I had to drag her out to leave, I can't wait for her bachelorette party and her wedding!!! I went back to Maia's house after the kids went to sleep for some much needed quality time with Maia, Kate, and Mandy. I took for granted those nights prior to kids and now I long for them to just enjoy what they have to say to hear about their single lives or lives with out children. I love listening to what they have to say and to learn more about them as people it makes me feel like a whole person and not just a Mom. Thanks Guys!
I have to give credit to my husband who yesterday spent the day cleaning the house, it took some yelling and bartering but he cleaned and did a darn good job. I had been feeling overwhelmed with the amount of clutter and mess there was that I couldn't find any of my clothes to wear, clothes for the kids. So Carlos, thanks for working with me to get this house straightened out!
After a long weekend the kids and I had a long leisurely breakfast at Bagelman followed by a trip to the grocery store we've played outside, done laundry that now needs to be folded and the kids are playing/reading quietly in their room leaving me to sit and write this blog which I feel like I could write a book about all the events that happened since I wrote last. We've been non-stop with family and friends and I wouldn't change it for the world...
I love how babies bring people together.
Last Wednesday the kids and I took a trip with both kids to visit my sister in Massachusetts so my kids could meet my sister's new little girl Samantha. Izabella fell in love with her instantly, she constantly wanted to hold her and burp her, she would look adoringly at her while commenting on how cute her little mouth and eyes were. What a sweet little girl I have sometimes... Our ride up was an adventure, Anthony was exhausted and passed out once we got in the car and on the road (a 2 1/2 hour trip) Izabella stayed up with me the entire time, we talked a lot until we were on the road for about forty five minutes she informed me that she had to gooo POOOP! I thought great I can't pull over on the side of the road and do this myself, Anthony is sleeping and I don't want to disturb him now and have him awake for the rest of the ride. So what did I do? I got off the next exit which had a motel and a parking lot pretty far from the road, I backed my outback into the spot and took Izabella to the trunk and held a plastic bag for her to poop in. I would have never thought my life would come to something like this but it did and we were successful Anthony slept through it and we were on the road as if nothing had ever happened.
Thursday morning I checked my phone and Carlos had left me a message that our nephew Kaedin was born!!! We left at nap time where both kids slept and made it home and over to see Kaedin who was born at 2:15AM 6lbs13oz and adorable!! We have been so lucky to have a neice and a nephew born exactly 4 weeks apart. Two new cousins for my little guys, I personally just love babies so it's been wonderful spending time with them and their Mom's. They both had really easy labor and deliveries making for a wonderful birth experience!
On Sunday was my good friend Maia's wedding shower, I am so happy to be a part of her life she is such a wonderful person and is just surrounded by a wonderful family! Izabella came with me and I had to drag her out to leave, I can't wait for her bachelorette party and her wedding!!! I went back to Maia's house after the kids went to sleep for some much needed quality time with Maia, Kate, and Mandy. I took for granted those nights prior to kids and now I long for them to just enjoy what they have to say to hear about their single lives or lives with out children. I love listening to what they have to say and to learn more about them as people it makes me feel like a whole person and not just a Mom. Thanks Guys!
I have to give credit to my husband who yesterday spent the day cleaning the house, it took some yelling and bartering but he cleaned and did a darn good job. I had been feeling overwhelmed with the amount of clutter and mess there was that I couldn't find any of my clothes to wear, clothes for the kids. So Carlos, thanks for working with me to get this house straightened out!
After a long weekend the kids and I had a long leisurely breakfast at Bagelman followed by a trip to the grocery store we've played outside, done laundry that now needs to be folded and the kids are playing/reading quietly in their room leaving me to sit and write this blog which I feel like I could write a book about all the events that happened since I wrote last. We've been non-stop with family and friends and I wouldn't change it for the world...
I love how babies bring people together.
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